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This is the first time I've heard of Logan. When I saw the first photo, it made me sad, because he looked just like our first baby, Brian.

Brian was also born very premature - 26 weeks or so - back in 1980. He weighed 1 lb 11 1/2 oz. The hospital he was born in did have a neonative intensive and were willing to do whatever it took to try to save him, but told us that they had never saved a baby that small, and that almost all the tiny preemie babies they did save, developed serious problems.

We asked them to do their best. We visited all day, every day, and sat by his side, and held his hand, and talked to him, and watched him fight, and watched him die. He lived for a little more than a week. He died of a cerebral hemorrhage.

It was very hard at the time, but we have two more beautiful boys born since then, and I try not to think about Brian.

At the time, we were hoping that the doctors would learn new things, and that the suffering would not be in vain.

The honest truth is that if Brian had lived, given the challenges such children faced in 1980, we might not have had our two other sons, but devoted our lives to trying to make his life a better one. He would almost certainly have been blind, and probably had other neurological damage.

Anyway, when I read the ping in my comment box, I said the Lord's Prayer for Logan, not realizing that he was so far along, and doing so well. Truly a beautiful baby, and from my perspective, a miracle.

Thank you for telling us your story. I'm so glad that God has blessed you with two more boys.

God has blessed us all with the increase in medical knowledge and the ability to care for the tiniest miracles.

Logan is really a miracle child. As hard as it's been, his course is so much easier than it could have been.

Oh my... your story makes me cry~
I am sorry for your loss.. and happy for your family that grew to include 2 more boys..

My own mom died of cancer when I was 16... more that 17 years ago..I always know that the Doctors did what they could..my mom tried EVERYTHING because whe wanted them to LEARN from her even though she knew she would not survive.

So I personally would like to thank your Brian and your family for being a part of little Logan's life..
the part the helped the Doctors learn enough to save him!
You are honored by me here.. indeed!

You can think of your Brian and know that he made a difference to Logan and now to all of us!

I believe this with ALL OF MY HEART!

God Bless You and Your Family...

Your story touches my heart because my daughter lost her twin babys last year, the second one at about the same age as Logan. She is due to have a little girl in January, but the loss of little Peace is something that none of us will ever forget. She is a little angel, and I think of her doing God's work with her little sibling, Serenity. Until I remembered that God was in charge and he is the one who calls home the special angels, it was an overwhelming sense of dread and loss that grasped me. Some children, some babys, some people, have a better path to take in touching our lives, I think. They bring us spirituality and touch our soul, always there at a moment's notice to remind us of something that we might never have known. Logan is very special as well. He has also touched those very deep places in our hearts and the little guy has served a good purpose on earth already. The Lord's Prayer is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story. Brian and Peace and all of the other children who have been lost to our living experience, will always be with us.

At the time, we were hoping that the doctors would learn new things, and that the suffering would not be in vain

I read your story, and I can't imagine how hard it must have been.

But you should know that neonatal intensive care now is miles ahead of where it was. In 1989, a major breakthrough was introduced, which was the use of surfactant introduced into children's lungs just after premature birth. This allows them to breath on a ventilator and later on their own far more easily then before, making survivability of pre-30 week old children far more likely.

Because of the ability to monitor blood oxygen saturation levels more easily through the use of pulse oximeters, Retinopathy of Prematurity (ROP) is far more preventable than it was just 15 years ago. So blindness due to ROP is far less common.