I'm glad to see that what I suspected was true, the difference between your view and mine is a matter of word usage.
The word willful is defined:
With regard to the command to abide in Jesus, I also see it as a matter of choice to pour oneself (self-will and all) into Him upon His invitation. To me, its involved relinquishing control, sheltering in His love, wallowing in His being. Self has no practical significance therein.