That's heroic, I suppose, facing off reality with a hope. Not hope. There are heroes in the world. There are some who love the truth above all things and know it. They are rare, but, that, too, is the way of all true values, all the more valuable for their rarity.
Hank
Being sad or looking like Sartre is heroic? Just curious. Heidegger, like Descartes, recognized an important flip-side. Your sadness, either way is telling.