On FR you have always come across to me, at least, as a person who wants to hear, see, smell, touch, or otherwise sense only those parts of All Creation he feels to be in line with his current views and understanding, and to deny, denigrate, refuse and ignore all else. This is the circumstance of many, of all to some extent and in some times, we are limited, we seek solace in the known and already comfortable.
If that is the case ... and my read on you, is subject to all the lousy and clouding factors relating to anyone at such a remove is -- therefore it could be far from the mark, as such reads oft are ... then wake up, open up, look around before you paint yourself too far into a corner.