There, there. Have you looked into a self-esteem program?
you're too hard on yourself(lol)
seriously, I am a lifer Catholic too but I find myself questioning everything that the hierarchy collects for....sort of like questioning the Unitied Way...
I find that I am giving more and more directly to groups that have immediate and close contact with the actual poor and down-trodden...I feel that I am the best person to determine who needs my money..