You mean like Balaam? Did he want to repent and follow God.
That would have been his point...these intersections with God were times we didn't repent..God was there..but by Wesleyan theology,eithor you did not recognize it at the time or you chose to ignore it .Eithor way you did not choose to repent..Calvin's would be they did not "want" to repent in spite of Gods presence
Woody did you ever stand in a large room of unsaved people and wonder how it is they can so clearly ignore God and His will?
It is beyond my understanding..you are right....no "want" there...
No! To me the mystery is not in man's want to not repent and ignore God. We have more than enough scripture that I can simply accept on faith that it is so:
And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves things to gird about. And they heard the voice of the LORD God, walking in the garden in the cool of the day. And Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the LORD God amongst the trees of the garden.I often ask myself what was so damning in Eden that we all together became unprofitable (Psalm 14 - my recent meditations). Even though I can accept it on faith because it is clearly stated in the Bible, this is the question I ask. And I do know something intimate about my sin, His glory, and the Terror of the Lord.