Hard to stay private ,when you entire being is based on narcissism......
I've only had about ten close homosexual friends or associates in my life - only one of whom I loved like a brother (but was among the first ever to die of AIDS). Except for him, all of the others were borish or intolerable narcissists. There was one other narcissist in my life whom I got rid of, and I strongly suspect he is closeted.
In that brief sentence, you laid out exactly what this evil is all about. Look at me! I put a (whatever) up my anus! Isn't that something to be proud of? Look at me!!! Look at meeeee!!!!