You should see a psychiatrist and tell him?her all about the Nazis coming after you.
I don’t need to tell anyone about it, since the creeping fascism of the west is
already well-documented. You should read more, try “Liberal Fascism” by Jonah Goldberg. You however should tell a psychiatrist about your desire to kill Russians. Bloodlust is a very severe psychiatric symptom.
There is a genuine case to be made that Germans are a fascistic people, they long have been. European whites have something inherently fascistic in them, curable only by a tradition of liberty. Hence my love of liberty and the Anglo-American tradition. As opposed to the German tradition of blood and iron, storm and slaughter.