So your God would rather have you go through a wood chipper, where the end result is death anyway rather than die beforehand?
Is that the God you serve?
You: “ I did not commit self murder because I got someone else to do it.”
Almighty God: “Hmm ...”
You: “Because of possible brutal treatment, understand?”
Almighty God: “ Are you sure you want to go with that ?!”
Part two: Why would you not just off yourself rather than get someone else ?
Answer the question.