I haven’t been to church in years and years. Not because of God, but because of people. It got to be too much. I was raised Catholic, and then went to a non-denominational church for years when I was older.
One pastor said, “Heaven is communism”. Then another said, “Even if Jesus is a lie, it’s the best way to live. And they also pushed/encouraged other things I didn’t/don’t like.
Altruism is not biblical. I’ve been looking into the Christian Orthodox Church, but there aren’t any around here that I know of.
https://www.assemblyofbishops.org/directories/parishes/
This may help find an Orthodox Church for those searching.
Yours is a common account.
You should find a good, Bible-believing, Gospel-centered, evangelical, expository-teaching, mission-focused church. Get involved. Then you should get yourself into a “small group” (Bible study group) that meets regularly.
That’s my advice.
Altruism is not biblical.
***You might be reading the wrong bible.