I am actively and persistently praying for your salvation--I added you to my digital list a half-hour ago--and I am hoping He doesn't need to subject you to the full Nebuchadnezzar treatment. I know what my journey to faith was, and He fashions a path suited to each.
By the way, here is a wonderful website containing many video testimonies of Jews who have found the Messiah:
I was going to offer you a few educational sites
Outreachjudaism.org
Noahide.org
To quote Ruvi Zacharias, (his joke, not my opinion) “When the Messiah comes I’ll thank him for coming and ask, ‘So, have you been here befor?’”