I'm an agnostic. I do the best I can and worry about the rest. I'd much rather have Faith.
As you said/implied up thread everyone is going to get exposed eventually.
My goal is to make that day for mom as far in the future as possible, and to make her initial exposure as small a viral load as possible. I believe that will allow time for an effective treatment to be agreed on and universally available, and that a low initial exposure will allow her immune system a chance to fight the virus to a mild, or even no, clinical case.
I wish you had faith as well. I don’t know how people function without it. If I can ever answer any questions or share any of my story with you I am a PM away and I mean that sincerely. You don’t have to check your brain at the door to be a christian. I wish blessing on you as you seek answers