Glad I left the Catholic Church.
What's with the soldiers abandoning their posts as soon as the enemy is within the walls? You're not supposed to go AWOL at first blood. You're supposed to stand and fight.
Jesus said that when confronted by the wolves, the good 'uns stay, the hirelings run. (John 10:12-13)
It's a very confusing time, disturbing, frightening, even surreal. But God is not the Author of confusion; and He gives His children light.