I hear you.
"MK-Ultra was a top-secret CIA project in which the agency conducted hundreds of clandestine experimentssometimes on unwitting U.S. citizensto assess the potential use of LSD and other drugs for mind control, information gathering and psychological torture. Though Project MK-Ultra lasted from 1953 until about 1973 ..."
* See post # 12 and # 8. Lots of people have come to feel that way ....... government seems to be a deep and ugly puzzle.