I have never lost a night's sleep over what I had to do.
You were not God's model when he created the rest of humanity...get over yourself.
What a goofy answer! Of course, I'm "God's Model", exactly as he designed me. And I'm thankful to Him - he kept me alive.
I'm going to go out on a limb here and suggest that your time in the army didn't include direct combat, did it?