The fact that Trump meets various times with Russians and even excludes White House cameras and only uses the Russian state media camera means there is a Trump/Russia thing. The question is whether it is an illegal, dangerous, or other wise malfeasance or misfeasance. Of that I have no evidence, only concern as so many of us who clearly remember the cold war are having.
I’m about the same age as you and remember well the Soviet union which no longer exists. Maybe Hillary would’ve been a better president. Would you be happy then?