I've seen it *up close and personal*.
In the 80s and 90s I trained with a group of guys
- two won national titles -
out of four that I knew for sure were on the juice
three are dead.
But in all three cases, not before totally "flipping out"
resulting in major mayhem and destruction of both
property and relationships.
Frankly it would not surprise me if it was suicide by hanging because his life was over.
I am no conspiracy theory stuff nut person.