I am so sorry to read this. We’ve suffered bad Popes before. If you believe that this is the Church that Christ instituted, then doing as you have done is a serious sin.
You sound like my sister.
I refuse to support a “Church” that sees no compassion for M.E. Christians,
but manages to support Christianity’s enemies.
I am a Believer in my faith but not with the terribly flawed humans running the show at the moment.
We all sin, I ask and pray for the Lord’s forgiveness every day.
Perhaps that is not enough for your piety, oh well.