I hear you; I have a family (all of the kids minors) and I doubt I’d have the nerve to live up to the courage of the martyrs. Odd, considering that (to me at least) it is a guarantee of eternal salvation. I’d be thinking of how they’d get on without me (in particular the fate of their souls), and I’d probably chicken out (and spend the rest of my life atoning for it)...
Yes, that would be me.