....” I still find it hard to believe”....
Not so....your posts evidence you do believe...and that you’re seemingly content having others on FR share your belief and go along with you.
If you do have doubts...then might be good idea to stop tearing up Cruz until you’re convinced of what you do believe.
Your defense of Cruz is starting to sound like the voice in the wilderness. You are going to be really busy trying to snark everybody because most have wised up about him.