I read this a lot when someone commits suicide. I would like to put in a personal comment.
I struggled with depression for most of my life. I contemplated suicide a lot. There is emotional pain; but, there is also a sort of physical pain that goes with it. I could see, that it correlated with my monthly cycle; but, it was still hard to deal with and stole a lot of time from me, while I was trying to cope. I always have a lot of sympathy for someone who takes their own life; because, I have seen the edge and looked into that pit. I never did take that final step. But, I contemplated it on a regular basis. I would pull through; but, it took a lot of energy to keep going and it seemed that my entire life was spent trying to cope with this condition.
I tried anti-depressants once; but, they did not help me at all and, in fact, left me feeling flat and emotionless, and I lost my sexual drive completely, and it never really returned. All I could do, was try to hang on, and that is not a fun way to go through one's life.
About five years ago I was diagnosed with uterine cancer and had to have a hysterectomy. I had noticed that my depression had lessened after I had stopped having a menstrual cycle; but, after the surgery my depression was gone completely. It seems that it was entirely hormonal. I am feeling much better now; but, that depression took a lot of my life and energy to cope with. Whenever I hear of someone committing suicide, I am filled with sadness and I think, there but for the grace of God, go I.
Compassion is necessary. You may not understand; but, this person went through a lot of inner turmoil in their life. My experience would say that he just had a day where he couldn't fight anymore. Very sad.
A very good post Liz.
I’m so glad you are feeling better.
You are 100 percent correct. My wife and lost our son to suicide a little over 4 years ago because of depression. Unless a person has been through it, depression can not be understood how much a person is suffering.
I am so glad you are feeling better! Thank God for your recovery!
Excellent post.
Thank you,Liz, for sharing your story. I am glad your depression is now gone.
RIP Robin Williams.
Thank you for sharing your experience. I have not struggled with severe depression but I understand thoughts of suicide. I struggled with very severe migraines for many years. They were worse than natural child birth and usually lasted for about 36 hours. No pain medicine could touch the pain. I remember many times wanting to die just to make the pain stop. A hysterectomy cured the most severe ones. Now I have a miracle drug called Toradol (injection) that breaks the pain in about 20-30 minutes. I can make it through 30 minutes!
You’re right. He had a very bad day and couldn’t get through it this time. It’s heartbreaking.