I completely understand, but for me priests, homilies and bishops will come and go but the Eucharist will always be where I can engage fully with a living God. I just couldn’t give that up.
God Bless you that you can receive the Eucharist. I married a Jewish man and could not be married in the Catholic church, so I can no longer participate in the sacrament.
I hope that your services stay untainted by this travesty of Christian charity.