I had spent so long in the trappings of competition with other women and putting too much pressure on myself that I just wanted to help women.
Help them to end the lives of their own children.
Then, as excerpted above, she admits that she was a big advocate of birth control...for other women. Not for her. Nope. She heard of too many negative side affects. Her rationale was that she charted and didn't enter long term relationships. What? You can't get pregnant in a short term relationship? The father of this child wasn't involved in her decision according to the article, so I'll make a guess the father didn't even know. The bottom line is that this poor child never asked to be here. The child is here because her (and the father's) actions put the child there, and then she decided to kill the child.
Patients at the clinic always ask me if I can relate to them — have I had an abortion? Do I have kids? I was so used to saying, “I’ve never had an abortion but…”
Now you can, right?
I searched the Internet, and I couldn’t find a video of an actual surgical procedure in the clinic that focused on the woman’s experience. We talk about abortion so much and yet no one really knows what it actually looks like.
There is still no video of an actual procedure from the abortion crowd. How about you show the actual abortion, this including them piecing the baby parts together after to make sure it's all out.
I wanted to show it wasn’t scary — and that there is such a thing as a positive abortion story. It’s my story.
Not positive for the child killed.
She says the clinic was supportive of her filming it but was concerned that pro-lifers might protest at the door or make "bomb threats." She then says that working at an abortion clinic is like working in a "war zone." I'll agree with her there...but for a different reason.
My jaw dropped when I read this:
I knew the cameras were in the room during the procedure, but I forgot about them almost immediately. I was focused on staying positive and feeling the love from everyone in the room. I am so lucky that I knew everyone involved, and I was so supported. I remember breathing and humming through it like I was giving birth. I know that sounds weird, but to me, this was as birth-like as it could be. It will always be a special memory for me. I still have my sonogram, and if my apartment were to catch fire, it would be the first thing I'd grab.
There is so much wrong with this. So much. It was all about here. She felt supported and loved, and it really didn't matter what happened to her child. However, she calls the whole thing "birth-like," a "special memory," and wants her sonogram if there is a fire.
In her video (which I will link to below), she says, "I don't feel like a bad person; I don't feel sad; I feel in awe of the fact that I can make a baby. I can make a life. I knew that what I was going to do was right cause it right for me and no one else." That is true. It was right for no one else. Me me me me me me. This woman is a doula. She knows what was in her was a person, and she admits it, but that wasn't enough to stop her from killing it. She's happy with her decision:
Still, every time I watch the video, I love it. I love how positive it is. I think that there are just no positive abortion stories on video for everyone to see. But mine is.
Guilt, she says, is not evidence of wrongdoing but rather manufactured by society. Society makes women feel guilty, not the fact they just ended the lives of their child.
I hope someday her delusional bubble bursts, and she realizes what she's done, but it sounds like she already knows and doesn't care, is even proud.