But I'm trying.
What’s really weird is that I am having an absolute blast now. I sincerely believe that the nation will not survive Obama, but I know the Lord is going to handle this in whatever way he sees fit. It may mean a horrible future for me in this life. Heck, most of the apostles died a horrible death - but I know the Lord provides and eventually it will be Game Over no matter what happens. So it’s all good.
To amplify, just a short story: One day I was bicycle commuting and attacking the worst uphill of the ride. Suddenly this philosophy bubbled to the surface: God put me in this body and I have the luxury of experiencing electrical impulses from all over my body and can interpret them any way I want but, ultimately, each one means that I am alive.
I stood up on my pedals and powered up that hill, yelling, “I’M ALIVE!” and knowing it with every “pain” coming from my legs and lungs. It was invigorating.
I learned something that day.