Becoming an alcoholic can be a slow process. Upwards of 10 years or more. If you feel you need it to handle daily life, then you have a problem.
I lived with an alcoholic gf for one year. She was a drunk from the age of 13 in a family with an alcoholic father and older brother. I had to realize it was her choice to live or die. You won’t love someone into getting help. The last service I did for her was have her arrested under an order of protection. She sobered up in jail, got the proper meds she needed all her life for depression and has been sober for 3 1/2 years.
She thanked me for saving her life but I told her that was her ultimate doing. I just gave her a shove.
I’m just glad I’m not visiting her in the cemetery. We both have our own lives now but remain friends.
The absolute madness of watching someone commit slow motion suicide leaves a mark on you. I’ll never think about alcohol the same way again. As the one who was sober throughout all of it, I get to have the bad memories of it all. Working through that now and I know I’ll be fine. It’s boundaries and choices.
If you are not a devout Christian, you need to be (because that seems to be your walk in life).
Wow!
If I can help you in your walk in Christ, let me know.
I will do all I can!