I have attempted suicide several times, almost exclusively with pills. The attempts were serious enough to have given me a stroke and complete kidney failure. Just bad luck in being successful, I guess.
The point is, after the first attempt, I was on some sort of list that rendered me permanently unable to purchase a firearm, and I’m way too burnt out on hospital visits and shrinks to attempt anything again. So, in this limited instance, I guess should be thankful to not have access to guns.
I hope you find the strength to resist that sort of thing in the future.
You really have no idea what it does to those that love you.
I know this first hand, as my mother was one of which I speak.
even after 30 years, it is still devastating to me