My problem is due to problems with my short-term memory. It’s as though my short-term memory is like a small pitcher that fills quickly and needs time to process before I can take in more stuff.
It’s not because I lack IQ. Having had it tested several times, I consistently score between 135 and 160.
Thinking back on it, I had a similar problem when I was in school. The textbook knowledge I lack is astounding, but when you hear me talk you wouldn’t think I had a horrible education. Took me 5 years and another 2 months after moving to CT from NYC for me to finish high school from start to end. It was most noticeable for me that way with math; learn these equations today, and something different tomorrow, or sometimes we’d learn two different equations in the same day.
I suffered a ton of anxiety during tests because I couldn’t remember what went with what, and I also had anxiety about asking the teacher to stop and go over something, probably a bad habit I picked up thanks to various people in my life. As such, I was scared that either the students would make fun of me, or the teacher would break that golden rule and insult me.
I’m all for online/home schooling as it takes out so much anxiety associated with learning, because you can do so at your own pace. Not saying the other side of it is wrong, but people who are against online/home schooling (minus the unions) either had a remarkably pleasant childhood and school experience, or have an uncanny ability to forget about the bad things that happened during those years.
Another small note, I remember testing my IQ a few times online and got scores around 120. It’s definitely better than average.