Christ will deny no one. Ask while on you knees in the corner of your room, alone and sincerely, to come into your heart and he will.
Read the Bible and pray and ask, he will come to you and then you will understand. You will be overwhelmed with a joy that is indescribable and then walk confidently in your faith in Him.
Please try it if that is what you really are searching for.
I know that you are right, Ron, I’ve no doubt whatsoever, because that is exactly what I did.
I don’t want to go into details on this site to be honest with you, but to sum it up, I walked into Hell in my life, I walked right straight into it, and I prayed to Jesus Christ. I asked Him to give me the strength to find my way back, and He did. His Strength came fromm inside me, an utter weakling.
Since that time, He has worked miracles in my life. Literal miracles. But for Him, I would not even be able to relay this to you, because I would have died.
Take care, Ron, I’ve got to run.
LVR gave some great advice. May I add: Ask God to lead you to a good, Bible-believing church. :-)