....and, as importantly, while you are alive, you are in misery.
Take it from me, I was once an addicted user of what Whitney used.
Ah Laz... God bless you for having the courage to kick it and live again! I helped my brother in law get free from it, took well over a year for him to recover.
Drugs make you fear. Once trapped in fear, it is so very hard to find the self love to walk past that fear. I admire you sir!