Oh, yeah I was just jumping up and down in my chair. An exclaimation point does not necessarily mean happiness.
I don’t have any feeling one way or another in this case. I can only relate what my family went through. It was the most agonizing gut wrenching decision my husband and I ever made. There are no words.
I just find it interesting that some folks who never has had to make that kind of choice can sit here and make judgements. So when a story like this comes along and I read some of the comments, yes I do get a bit excited about it. I have been there. I know what it feels like to have to say goodbye to your baby.
The nurses dim the lights and you are standing there at the foot or the side of the bed watching the breathing machines breath for your child. You stand there and take their little hands and they are so cold, begging for them to wake up!!!! that mommy’s here. You know time is running out.
Then you realize that you have to let them go home to God. You climb in the bed and hold your child close to you in your arms, and signal the nurse to turn off the machine. In some ways now that I look back on that precious moment I was given a gift, although I did not realize it at the time. It took many years 17 to be exact to hold on to that memory of guiding my little boy into God’s loving arms.
No, I am not cheering what has happened here. But I feel a kindred spirit with the parents.
How do you know who has been faced with the choice between right and wrong and who hasn’t?
Every time I look into my husband’s eyes, I know I made the right choice. I don’t know how others face their demons, but I’m glad I don’t have that problem.