[AmericaUnite]

Thank you. We had a very rough year with his rebelliousness. We were in programs for his weekend binge drinking. He always had trouble making friends. He was gorgeous and got called gay a lot. He developed a tough exterior this year especially.

He had girlfriends but really didn't know how to treat them. I blame that on the porn he saw. He never mistreated them. It's just porn is no relationship. Porn for a teen fuels their already hormone peaked desires, yet most are too immature to act responsibly.

On that blizzard night, his ex-girlfriend kissed his friend in front of him. He had 5-6 beers before. Then he walked to town and jumped in front of a train.

I am not one for seeing visions. But, on the day of the second wake, he stood ten feet from me as I was at the washing machine. Just like he might do if he wanted something from me. But, this time he had no shirt on. He said, "Mom, I'm sorry." I burst out crying and said, "And so am I." I feel he got permission to tell me that.

God Bless FreeRepublic. We are joining The Compassionate Friends. http://www.compassionatefriends.org/home.aspx

[TChris]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Many FReepers will question or even mock the idea that pornography can cause serious problems in our children, but I personally declare that it is true.

Exposing minors to pornography does very real, profound damage to them. Sometimes, the consequences of that damage can be utterly devastating to their lives.

May God bless you.

[gathersnomoss]

Prayers to you. Your son is fine. You are a good mom.