Look at posts earlier today by the first person to attack me on this thread.
Who attacked you? Did someone slam you up against a wall, fling you into a dumpster with a pile of others of your species, gas you until you were nearly dead, then watch you slowly die? Did someone do unspeakable things to you and leave your carcass on the side of the road?
Get over yourself and your selfish desires. Some things are not about you or satisfying your lusts.