[[Man claims he wants justice. But he does not want what’s coming to him.]]
One of my pastor’s favorite sayings was ‘are you sure you want God’s wil lfor your life? Because if you do, hold on, it may be much much different than what you had in mind’. I’ve always known even from young age, that my lot in life was goign to be rough wehile those aroudn me would sail by fairly easily, and you know- it’s almost worse for them, wishing they could take on some of my burden, but knowing they can’t- they feel a bit guilty for not havign to endure what I’ve had to, and I could see the pain in their eyes when I faced soem of my worst times- As I mentioned, my position has it’s pluses and minuses, and it’s a mixed blessing curse situation- I keep hearing that ‘God will never push us beyond what we can endure’, but my goodness, does it have to be right up to the edge so often? That’s what runs htrough the mind- how many more times before I break? Why is it necessary to ‘find out’ in my case? The ok times are ok, but the bad times are not ok (even though I accept that for whatever reason God is allowing it)
I keep thinking back to the apple- Just reaping what we’ve sown- some people more than others
bah- when I get tired I get down- so G’night
May God bless you always.