It is mentally draining on you to have to take a life. That is why officers are given a rest period of 2-3 days before they even start writing down the official versions of what happened. There is post-traumatic stress going through this.
I wish officers would keep these facts in mind when dealing with a law abiding citizen who’s just had to defend themselves with their firearm. They are the victims that have been attacked and had to fend off an attacker, they are like the police (law abiding, unwilling participant) rather than a criminal. Yet so often citizens who find themselves in this position, to add insult to injury, are not treated as someone who just went through something traumatic.
Only for girly-men.
Everyone is a victim of something, I guess.