You too? Mine is also pulluted with Carlos Castenada. It's a wonder I can function at all!
LOL. Regret the wasted years on that, remember seeing books on/by Carlos but never read any.
I can't function very well lol. Still I don't blame it on my poor choice of reading material, and I've of a mind that even garbage can stimulate you into seeking answers elsewhere.
You ought to try some Robert Monroe on for size, and then Zechariah Sitchin. Bring your crayons. :-)