I have a condition I don’t even know the name of.
I sometimes enter a state of total paralysis somewhere between sleep and consciousness. I feel the pain of whatever position I am in and am semi-aware of all that is going on around me but cannot move a single muscle or change my state of awareness.
I can be screaming and flailing inside trying to change my position or condition but to no avail. Only an external stimulus, a very loud noise or someone shaking me, will bring me out to full consciousness.
I have found myself in the state described many times for anywhere from a few minutes to near two hours. If diagnosed with a disease that would eventuate in such a condition I would seek to inflict sufficient trauma to this body that it would release my soul to whatever my God has awaiting me on the other side.
Far be it from me to decide what is right or wrong for anyone else or for anyone else to decide what is right or wrong for me.
Curious to follow this thread but will have to wait until after church.
Narcolepsy? Is that what you have and the paralysis is very close to sleep paralysis,,where you wake up and cannot move or talk but are paralyzed. You are seeing an MD? Neurologist?
I hope you are getting medical help.
that sounds like extended epilepsy (form of)
i had a friend who would get that for a few minutes...not hours