My sympathies to you, Alouette, and to all observant Jews all over the world who have been hit by this awful tragedy.
Be strong; be resolute.
My friend is a Pakistani living in Karachi, and one day while sitting on the steps inside his home, he saw a vision of Jesus. Jesus was standing there with a scroll in his hands, and he pointed to my friend, and said, “I have chosen you”. My friend was a Muslim, but he set out to find out “who is this Jesus?” Needless to say, he found a church and was converted to know the Lord. Yes, he did know of the hatred that Pakistanis have for the Jews, but he came to love the Jews and has been studying Hebrew. My friend risks his life to go to a church, and he went to one who had guards at the door, and the guard asked him questions, and when he told that he did have a Muslim father, they sent him away, but he still fights on at the risk of his life.