I think you've got issues that I am not qualified to deal with.
Look in the yellow pages under psychologist and get the help you need. You might also want to consider getting on some meds. You are not in THIS WORLD. You are somewhere else ... .
Take care and GET WELL!
60 posted on 11/01/2008 7:44:55 AM PDT by nmh
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