Your bitterness is going to kill you. I have totoal empathy for what has happened to you so I’m not going to engage you any longer. I will offer prayers for you, although you probably don’t care or want them. Why? Because you are a human being deserving of sympathy and love. We all are. The innocent as well as the “stupid” as you say. The young, the old, and the testosterone filled male teens who for a temporary period of time in their lives - miscalculate and and have less fear of things that should be feared.
Peace be with you - and I mean that sincerely.
Sorry if you inferred bitterness, but you could not be more mistaken. If I had not gone through the pain of HLHS, there is so much that I would have missed. I gladly accept and welcome your prayers, and do not doubt your sincerety.