[irishtenor]

But that would have been when God chose for me to die, so, yes.

Do you think you can die without God’s will?

[AmericaUnited]

Is it God’s “will” for anyone to go to hell?

[AmericaUnited]

But that would have been when God chose for me to die, so, yes.

So you are claiming that it would have been "God's will" for you to commit suicide by ingesting a fatal dose of arsenic. Don't you find that theology a gross perversion on what the Presbyterian church teaches?