February 7, 2008
Calling Myself
READ: Psalm 26
Vindicate me, O Lord, for I have walked in my integrity. —Psalm 26:1
As I was moving my laptop, cell phone, and assorted books and papers from one room to another, the “regular” phone rang. I hurriedly set down my stuff and rushed to answer the call before the answering machine kicked in. “Hello,” I said. No reply. I said hello again when I heard rustling, but still no response. So I hung up and went back to my stuff on the floor. When I picked up my cell phone I realized that I had accidentally speed-dialed my home phone number!
I laughed at myself, but then wondered: How often are my prayers more like calling myself than calling on God?
For example, when I am falsely accused, I plead with God for vindication. I want my name cleared and the guilty person held accountable for the harm done to my reputation. But then I get impatient with God and try to vindicate myself. I may as well be praying to myself.
Vindication does not come from self-defensive arguments; it stems from integrity (Ps. 26:1). It requires that I allow God to examine my mind and heart (v.2) and that I walk in His truth (v.3). This, of course, requires patient waiting (25:21).
When we call on God, He will help us—but in His perfect time and in His perfect way.
Brought not the thing I sought;
He answered better than my plea,
Yes, better than my thought. —Anon.
