James, IMHO, the most impossible and unpleasable person in this scenario is you. If you want to live alone for fear of failing in a relationship, do... just stop blaming the rest of the world, and women, and the legal system, for your decision. It’s easy to focus on everything that’s wrong with the world, I guess, I’ve never been that kind of person. I don’t feel cheated for being given the time I’ve got.
Good luck to you.