Stick with God, pal....trust in the Lord. And ignore the naysayers that say He doesn’t exist, and ignore the liars telling you that God endorses homosexuality. Everyone has some burden to bear, so yoke placed upon them. Attraction to the same sex isn’t a sin...acting on it is. Just remember that. The Lord will find you a good woman to help you in this life if you trust in Him.
Then why would lusting in one's heart be a sin? Apparently even entertaining sinful thoughts is a sin. Well, according to Christ anyway.