Do you mean that your children have defeated you? I am already approaching “old” age, my wife and I having raised seven children . . . using the rod when necessary. We have already watched the principles of Proverbs, and the Bible as a whole, work marvelously in our home. We will not be humbled in the way you suppose, because we seek no exaltation, except for our Saviour Jesus Christ. Exalting Him requires obedience to His Word, including in the area of child rearing.
I don’t doubt your resolve to neuter children who disrespect you. We all need challenges.
Aim high!
You are seriously creepy.