I know.
and shows how pride and human rationalization has crept into your mind to distort your soul and your thinking process.
I will forgive you for your assumptions, since starting with your beliefs they are inevitable.
I would be most willing to suspect, upon further examination, that I think that this conclusion of yours is borne of some personal issues that you have to deal with concerning your Fundamentalist background / upbringing. I’m not saying that it of itself is the cause, only that I think that you have some issues with it (which you acknowledge) that have caused you to become obstinate toward God.
Nope, I never had much against God. It was a result of my realization that I could not condemn Mohommed unless I could rationally defend Joshua. I realized that this was impossible. The only way my fundamentalism really was involved was in ruling out the possibility that God was truly a God of absolute morality and merely too inept to transmit his will regarding morality clearly in the Old Testament. Fundamentalism doesn't incline one to believe in ineffectual gods. :-D
To say that “Perhaps God really has a personality more like Satan” is just flat out blasphemy and a telltale byproduct of an evil origin
While I sympathize with your feelings of outrage, that possibility was an inevitable conclusion of the premise I made (that evil is what God says it is, evil is not evil in itself), which I see you have not really addressed.
You have to remember that God’s Ways are above our ways ... His Thoughts are above our thoughts. There is no way that we as human beings, with our inherent faults and limited comprehension of the world, could ever even come close to understanding what life / creation is about on a scale of how God indeed does or permits it to be. No way. We can try, but we will never succeed. Our human brains are incapable of it.
This was about the only answer I got to my questions. How could God order infanticide? "God is righteous [an undefended postulate, since ordering the killing of babies sure doesn't look righteous], and we cannot understand him. Stop trying and just have faith." Again, if we can't understand God, and God can order us to do things that we would consider evil normally (killing babies) and have it be righteous, the true character of God is unknowable and might be more like what we think Satan to be. I prefer to have faith in what I know to be trustworthy, thank you.
Stop questioning why God permits evil to be done in this world ... evil DOES NOT come from God
In the case of the genocide of the Canaanites (including the babies, let's not forget), God ordered the evil done.
Without God there are no grounds for moral objection to anything .
Cordially,