[Can you really make yourself believe something?]
God doesn’t mind disbelief as long as the person is honest- heck, one of hte gretest christian converts was doubting Thomas as he was rightfully called. Doubting Thomas absolutely refused to beleive unless he saw for his own eyes- Christ did not rebuke him for his honesty, He welcomed it. Tell God flat out you don’t believe and ask that if He be real, that He change that.
And just for the record- it’s not done to ‘get a reward’- True, a reward does come with it, however, the reward itself is not the reason to seek, infact, it is an impediment if that’s the real motivation as it obscures the real issue at work- the ultimate confession that God is God and we are creations in need of God and a Savior
You seem to think it feels good to lose faith. Trust me, nothing feels worse than knowing how lonely we really are, in this existence.
As for your directive to “tell God flat out you don’t believe and ask that if He be real, that He change that,” how long must one wait, and how long must one ask? All I hear are chirping crickets of reality. Not one or two days, a good many years and counting...
That, and by the way, real atheists have nothing against this God. They are just amused at the lengths mankind goes into believing that which isn’t real, and a few other times, a good reason for being afraid of the delusional.