Hate to say it Mike, but here's what'll happen to you:
Pelosi will push you in the closet;
Let you out when she needs your vote;
Instruct you on how to vote;
Remove you from your committee position if you do differently then she wants.
She's already doing that, i.e. Jane Harmon.
The Gonad Lockbox.
Take custody of the gonads, the hearts and minds will follow.