It's ok, I understand better than anyone that it's just unbelievable. Don't you think i knew taht, as i was in the choke hold? I still remember the looks on the workman's faces in the parking lot next door. Their mouths were hanging open, i was so scared and ashamed. He was telling me to get down and i could not get down. duh. he had me by the neck.
I don't care what he thinks, really, i mean it doesn't affect me. I wish it had NOT happened, i'd rather be a liar than have these memories.
I thought he was joking at first anyway. I didn't know he was serious at first.
Drop it, please. I have to, i can't dwell on it anymore. I just thought i could get it out here, sort of anonymously. Guess not.