You are a young person and it is perfectly natural for young people your age to go through stages. Try to chill out and work a little harder to fit in, instead of atracting attention to yourself. Mellow out. When I was your age I was reading "The Late Great Planet Earth" by Hal Lindsey and it was in the middle of the "MidEast Oil Crisis" of the '70's and I was sure the end was just coming right then. It has now been almost 30 years... and we're all still here.
So, just keep being ready and chill.