Somebody told me when I was first getting sober that:
- First it gets better,
- Then it gets worse,
- Then it gets different,
- Then it gets real different,
- Then it gets real.
I didn't have a clue what that meant at the time, but after about ten years it finally made sense.
Absolutetly true. Sometimes the "better-then-worse" part has to happen several times. The key is to not give up and don't be so hard on one's self.